Wow

Wow.
Okay, so today has been one of those days where I just wanted to cry and scream at the same time.

Kind of been doing a little of both.

I was talking to one of my friends about what was going on with me (long story, not really wanting to explain it right now) and she was telling me that she wanted me to...she just wants me to trust in God and I'm like...I do. But not always.

Why is that? Why when every thing's crashing down around us, we think that we can handle this on our own?

Why do we wave God away and say that we have this and to just let us do our own thing? I don't really understand why people do that. Why I do that.

I wish there was a way to start over again with God. You know, in a far far away time before I pushed Him away.

Before I told Him that I could handle this all on my own...

But that's one of the best things about our Lord. He never really goes away. He's always there. And no matter how many times you deny Him, ignore Him, push Him away, or anything else...He'll always be there.

Now tell me one of your friends that does that for you. No matter how times you push them away, they stay. No matter how many times you tell them that you don't need them and that they can't help you, they stay.

I bet I can count on one hand how many people you listed. ZERO!
Because no one has the patience or the love like the Lord, God our Saviour.

This post reminds me of the story of the Prodigal son found in Luke 15: 11-32.


A certain man had two sons.
And the younger of the two said to his father, 'Father. Give me the portion of goods that are mine.'
So his father divided unto his two sons his living.
And not many days after, the younger son gathered all he had and took his journey into a far country.
Where he wasted his substance with riotous living.
And when he had spent all he had, there was a mighty famine in the land which he dwelled and the son found himself in need.
So he went to a citizen of that country and worked in his fields feeding his swine.
And he longed to fill his belly with the husks that the swine were eating: and no man gave anything to him.
And when he came to himself, he said, 'How many hired servants of my fathers have bread and enough to spare, and I perish with hunger! I will arise and go to my father and I will say to him, "Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee, I am no more worthy to be called thy son. Make me as one of thy servants."
And he arose and came to his father.
But when he was a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion. He ran to his son and fell on his neck and kissed him.
And the son said to him, 'Father. I have sinned against heaven and in thy sight. I am no more worthy to be called thy son.'
But the father said to his servants, "Bring forth the best robe and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand and shoes on his feet. And bring the fatted calf and kill it and let us eat and be merry.
For this my son was dead, and is alive again. He was lost and is found."

Isn't that a powerful passage? We will always be Prodigal sons and daughters of our Father. He will always welcome us Home with open arms.

I want to get to the way I was before. When I didn't tell the Lord that I didn't need Him in my life...

Who's with me?